I’ve had PTSD, I’ve had Depression, but the thing that creates a constant buzz, makes life constantly a little more difficult than it should be, is Anxiety. Looking back on my life I think I’ve experienced Anxiety for most of it, at least since I was 12 or so. It’s currently a livable condition in the sense that it doesn’t interfere with my everyday life–I’m able to work, maintain intimate relationships, maintain superficial relationships (an art in itself for someone who tends to be all-or-nothing about everything), etc. At work, telemarketing, I experience the most anxiety, and then only on nights when one particular manager is in the room, because he’s unstable and unpredictable and it goes right to those deep triggers that say, “irrational angry man. hide.” Then I drink lots of kava kava tea.
Besides kava kava tea on the front lines, I take a B-complex and steer away from caffeine (I drink 1-2 cups of green tea per day). I don’t get enough exercise (read: any) which would probably help. Sometimes I take valerian. I dislike chamomile and licorice (which seem to be included in most “relaxing” teas). I don’t have health insurance so I can’t get meds until school starts, but the process of getting meds is its own minefield of anxiety triggers (I don’t know who these doctors are who hand out Prozac like candy, but I’ve always had a hell of a time getting any medication–I’ve even had to argue about birth control) so I’d prefer to stick with herbal remedies.
So my question to you, knowing that many of my readers are artists who experience it too, is this: what do you do to stave off The Anxiety?